Workout Wednesday: The Insanity Begins

Good Evening!

I know this post is coming super late, but at least I am posting.  That's progress for me.  This week has been super hard for some reason, even though I feel like I've started with smaller goals.  my only two goals were to not eat fast food and complete the first week of Insanity: Max 30.  So, I thought I would reflect on my week so far...

Day 1: I could not get my ass out of bed (you'll notice this is a theme throughout the week).  So, I committed to working out after work...AND I DID!  That's pretty good for me.  I thought I worked out pretty hard, and I was okay with myself.  However, today I don't think that I pushed to my max.  I did the plyo as long as I could and then did the modification.  Even with this strategy, I maxed out at minute 4.  I'm not very happy about that, but I guess there's no where to go but up, right?  My food was also pretty on point this day as well.  I had a shake, a health choice frozen meal, and grilled chicken with veggies.

Day 2: I still could not get my ass out of bed.  However, unlike the previous day, I couldn't work out after work.  Instead, I ate pizza hut with my wife (I had the veggie one, but I had a lot of it) and then went to Bible study.  I did have a salad for lunch though.  The one thing I was kind of disappointed with was that I wasn't sore.  That makes me think I didn't dig as deep as I could have (or I have awesome vitamins, but I'm pretty sure it's the latter).  Bible study was nice though.  We started the Book of Ruth.

Day 3 (TODAY!): Today was a combination of day 1 and 2.  I couldn't get my ass out of bed (who is surprised).  I DID workout after work today, and I pushed myself harder.  I reached my peak heart rate for 6 of the 30 minutes.  Those in and out abs and squat lunges killed me though.  I ate the rest of my pizza for lunch, a salad for dinner...then my wife showed me her secret stash of ice cream sandwich cookies.  UGH....

Tomorrow, I'm going to get my ass out of bed.  I am going with my supervisor to a meeting tomorrow, so Im not sure what eating will look like.  If anything, I'm starting to make better choices and am holding myself more accountable than I have previously.  We will see how this progresses.

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First Steps

This is, what feels like, the millionth time I've tried to "start" my journey to being a "better me."  Furthermore, this is the twelfth millionth time I've tried to blog about it.  My name is Lauren; I'm about 120lbs overweight; I am an emotional eater; I can't seem to break the cycle.  I have enough insight to know I need some kind of accountability.  Therefore, I've created this blog, an Instagram account, and am on a couple of accountability groups on Facebook.

Really, I need to get my shit together before I turn 30.  I want to be around for my wife, my family, and my friends.  I want to be the best me possible; I don't want to be self-conscious anymore.  This means I need to exercise, eat better, and work on me, hence "the me project."

So, I'm committing to 30 days of Insanity: Max 30.  If I can make it 30 days, I can develop a habit.  Thirty days sounds attainable.  I plan to post on my accountability groups and on Instagram; therefore, "people" know that I am doing it and can hold me accountable (or ask questions) should I not post.  Along with this comes eating better.  I know if I plan out and prep my meals on the weekend, I will be successful.  Therefore, this is also part of the 30 day accountability plan.  In addition to social media, I plan on having segments on my blog called "Workout Wednesday" and "Foodie Friday;" that way, people can see what I think of exercising, what I'm eating, and have accountability for me.  Also, I want to do "STATurday" so I can track my progress.

Additionally, I'm attending Bible study on Tuesdays with a group of friends and am trying to get my soul taken care of as well.  So, I may post some reflections on what I'm doing as well in effort to sort out my thoughts.  Essentially, this blog is going to document my journey, my life.  It's going to give me somewhere to put all of the stuff that I don't feel like I can say to my friends.  I think that's a big part of the problem; my weight has been shamed for so long that I don't want to talk about it to anyone.  Therefore, I'm going to start with strangers; hopefully along the way I will become more courageous, make new friends, and grow stronger in my journey.

I'm the caterpillar; I want to change into the butterfly; the time is now.